A couple of Saturdays after âBaby Reindeerâ premiered on Netflix, its star and creator, Richard Gadd, learned that he was the most googled man on planet Earth. Or maybe he topped all searches on Wikipedia. Or it might have been both.
Itâs a lot to wrap your head around. What does it mean? Obviously, people want to learn something about you â who you are, what youâve done, if youâre in a relationship, that kind of thing. That kind of massive, collective curiosity can be flattering. Me? You want to know more about little old me? Or, if you, like Gadd, have created a television show based on your actual experience dealing with a stalker and how your own traumatic past informed that experience, you might be a little freaked out.
On a practical level, having the most-watched series on Netflix for a couple of months running means that when you pop over from your London flat to the pub to have a drink with some mates before the Pogues gig at the Hackney Empire, you literally canât move because people have swarmed you. Then when Gadd went to the concert, in part a tribute to the bandâs late frontman, Shane MacGowan, the same thing happened.
âBut I got to meet the Pogues, and that was great,â Gadd tells me. âAnd theyâd all watched the show, which I couldnât believe, having idolized them my whole life. [Accordion player] James Fearnley said he was on his second go, which is just crazy.â
These days, when it comes to his extraordinary, newfound fame, Gadd is learning to take the good with the bad. Sitting in a Netflix conference room with Jessica Gunning, who plays Martha, the woman who terrorizes Gaddâs alter ego, struggling comedian Donny Dunn, Gadd is relaxed when the conversation focuses on the creation of the seven-part limited series. But thereâs also an undercurrent of tension, owing to the fact that Piers Morgan is, while weâre having this conversation, interviewing the woman who claims to be the real-life Martha. (She has since sued Netflix for defamation.)
âUnfortunately, Iâm not able to comment on that,â Gadd says, glancing at one of the two Netflix publicists sitting in on the conversation. âEvery character in the show, five, six, seven people have been accused of being them. I canât police the internet. I can certainly go on record to say that Iâll never confirm or deny who they are.
âIf I wanted the real-life people to be found, I would have done a documentary. These are my real-life experiences, and I chose to demonstrate them in a fictional world based on truth. All I felt I needed to show the world was the basis of that emotional truth.â
That emotional truth is nothing short of astonishing, the primary reason why so many viewers, like that Pogues band member, have streamed âBaby Reindeerâ more than once the last few months.
Gaddâs character, Donny, is miserable; his dreams of becoming a comic have stalled and heâs eking out a living as a bartender. Regrets? More than a few.
When Martha, a middle-age woman verging on tears, sits down at the bar, Donny asks if he can get her something. A cup of tea? She protests. She canât afford it. âHow about I get you a cup of tea on the house?â Martha brightens. Sheâs thankful. And then she wonât leave him alone.
What begins as a horror story grows deeper and more complex, as Donnyâs own behavior becomes increasingly erratic, fueled by a self-loathing and neediness rooted in shame. The first episode begins with Donny entering the police station to report Martha. An officer asks: How long has this been going on? Six months. Whyâd it take you so long to report it? The answer, we learn in Episode 4, is devastating.
Gunningâs empathetic portrayal of Martha is vital to the seriesâ success. Gadd had seen her onstage and on television and thought she had an energy he associated with Martha, âbursting to get out.â She was one of 30 or so women who auditioned, reading two first-episode scenes with Gadd â the cafe âdateâ between Donny and Martha that goes off the rails and the moment outside the comedy club when Martha tells Donny that she wishes humans had a chin zip that would open all the way to their bellies. âIâd just unzip them and tuck myself away,â she says.
Gunning remembers running lines from the latter scene with a friend before the audition, telling her it was one of her favorites in the show.
âI said, âItâs like the sweetest, almost romantic scene,â and then my friend read it and said, âThis is terrifying,ââ Gunning says. âAnd it was genuinely the first time of seeing it another way. I was like, âOh, is it scary?â I thought it was a real compliment in that she found safety in the thought of being tucked inside him for winter.â
That perspective explains why she won the role.
âI was looking for someone who didnât prioritize villainous characteristics, that the âmadnessâ was a little bit back and the vulnerability came through,â Gadd says. âA lot of people didnât seem to get that. Only Jess seemed to.â
âBaby Reindeerâ began as a 2019 solo stage play with a barstool standing in for Martha. Three years earlier, Gaddâs show âMonkey See, Monkey Do,â which centered on his attempts to process the fear and shame from his own sexual assault, had premiered at the Edinburgh Festival Fringe. Both plays were successful on a small scale, and Gadd figured the limited series would just be this âweird show thatâs quite niche in a wayâ and would occupy a little corner on the Netflix platform. Instead, he spent those initial weeks after its premiere navigating âjust a hell of an adjustment.â
âI just feel quite windswept,â Gadd says. âLike, âWhoa, this is crazy.ââ
In âBaby Reindeer,â Gaddâs character achieves a measure of fame, only to find it hollow and unsatisfying. Has this sudden notoriety left him feeling a bit the same way?
âAsk me in six months,â he replies, quickly adding, âIâm only joking. Thatâs a joke.â Gadd goes on to talk about all the letters he has received through his agent from people saying the show has encouraged them to break their silence over trauma from their past. He mentions that a male sexual abuse charity based in Manchester, We Are Survivors, reported an 80% increase in calls since âBaby Reindeerâ premiered, with more than half of them citing the series as the reason for reaching out.
âI canât see it as a hollow experience when things like that are happening,â Gadd says.
Heâs also pleased that viewers are discussing â and largely appreciating â the seriesâ ambiguous ending, which mirrors the moment when Donny gives Martha the cup of tea. Only now, itâs Donny sitting in a bar, distraught, and itâs the bartender taking pity on him, offering a drink on the house. Donny looks up with an expression that can be read many ways. Perhaps heâs remembering that first moment with Martha. Maybe he now possesses a keener understanding of Martha. Or maybe, like Martha, this act of kindness will prompt him to fixate on the Good Samaritan offering it.
âI know what it means to me, but I donât think Iâd ever say it publicly,â Gadd says of the ending. âI think âBaby Reindeerâ has a lot to say, but I donât think it uses a megaphone while itâs saying it. It isnât bellowing its morality/message down the audienceâs throats. I like that itâs open to interpretation. I like that thereâs characters people dislike and then you ask the next person and they say they really like those characters.â
âI like that,â he adds, âbecause thatâs life in a way. Everythingâs subjective.â
A couple of months later, Gadd and I connect again via Zoom, partly because Iâm wondering if he can go to a pub these days without being disturbed. He says thereâs been a âbit of a dipping off, a slight coming downâ in his public profile, but heâs still not venturing into a Wetherspoons again anytime soon, even if he considers the chainâs â3-pound fry-upâ a ârite of passage.â
Sitting in the living room of his London flat, the walls a shrine to the Pogues, adorned with posters and rare albums, along with signed Laurel and Hardy memorabilia, Gadd seems much more relaxed.
âI hate to think of what I was like last time,â he says with a laugh.
Heâs focused on writing his next project, currently titled âLionsâ (âThatâs just a placeholder,â he says), which follows two men, close enough to consider themselves brothers, over the course of four decades from the â80s to present day. When it was announced that HBO would be co-producing this six-part BBC One show, a press release trumpeted that the series would âtry to get to the bottom of the difficult question … What does it mean to be a man?â
That sounds rather ambitious, I tell Gadd.
âWeâll see what happens,â he answers, laughing. âI really want to do a piece about masculinity and explore it in a way that hasnât been done before and just try to dig a little deeper into the difficulties around men, the difficulties around emotions and feelings. Just an exploration about the good and bad points about what it means to be a man.â
Heâs leaning into the challenge of writing something thatâs not based on his own life, as his last few projects have been. As much as Iâm appreciating his enthusiasm, itâs hard not to be distracted by his surroundings. Gadd really likes the Pogues. Thatâs not the half of it, he says. He turns around, grabs something and starts telling me a story about how he once wrote MacGowan a long letter, explaining how he rediscovered the bandâs music while he was healing from the trauma of sexual abuse and how lyrics he had listened to all his life now took on this âunbelievable meaningâ and became a way for him to cope.
A year later, a package arrived in the mail. It was a rare CD/DVD Pogues box set, signed by MacGowan. The inscription read: âLove Shane.â
âStill, to this day, if there was a house fire, thatâs the first thing Iâd grab,â Gadd says.